May 20, 2000
I'm feeling: tired
Right now I'm listening
to: Mai Kuraki
Kuraki : Stay by My Side
I was reading: Dragon Magazine
of the Day:
"Risk taking is not easy--and the greatest
risk of all is to try to know oneself, and to act on
-- Walter Anderson
out an entry two days ago (a crap entry, to be sure,
but an entry nonetheless) and was so goddam tired I
forgot to upload it. What the fuck? Damn, I gotta get this
as tired as I have been all this week, that's why I haven't
been writing. I usually write entries at the end of the
day, but lately at the end of the day I have but one thought,
going to sleep. Now. Which is of course, not now, or I'd
be in bed, it was then.. that is, at the end of said day;
that day being not today. (Comprende? I'm still really
tired.) I only woke up twice last night, so I think
I got five hours of unbroken sleep before I awoke. And no
the hell was I talking about? Oh, yeah. Sowing the seeds
of destruction. So anyway, the teachers (mostly the smoking
males) at school always play suck games on the computer
in the teachers' room. Solitaire. Free cell. A crap-graphics
mah jong wannabe. A couple days ago I stumbled across the
most kickass mahjong tile-game I'd ever seen. I also
have this really good shareware Tetris clone game so I took
both of them to school and installed them on the computers
in the teachers' room.
you see?!? They'll get even less work done now than they
did before!! The siren-call three-dimensional images of
mah-jong and the glowing shapes of Tetris will lure them
away from their desks, forcing them to waste endless hours
in front of the 17" computer screens. The socializing
in the teachers' room will be at an end! I shall have my
revenge upon all the chain-smokers... Oh, yes. Revenge
will be mine!!
curse my name, but they'll play my games. Oh, yes. They will,
they will....... :)
been seeing some things at work that really bother me lately.
There's nothing really I can do about it, either. There's
this room attached to the back of the teachers' room. Every
now and then I'll see a teacher (or a pair of them) take one
or a few students in the back there. The teacher(s) enter
with grim determination, the students with an expression of
dread plain on their faces. Soon thereafter, I hear shouting
and the unmistakeable sound of a face being slapped. Sometimes
they'll do it out among the desks and smack the students across
the top of the head. I see it all the time at this school,
it's unusual to see it at my other schools.
mean, for the most part, they are bad kids. But they get hit
for the stupidest rules. For sneaking a snack in between classes.
For dying their hair brown. Stupid shit. Why don't they concentrate
on disciplining the kids who throw things or yell across the
room during class, or kids who tease others mercilessly. I
hate seeing kids get hit, for any reason. The worst part is
seeing them cry.
people at Isao JHS like Mr. Kenshin. He's not very
typical, as far as Japanese people go. He doesn't really socialize
with the other teachers. He doesn't stay at school longer
than he has to. He's absent quite a bit. I've heard him described
as lazy, "un-Japanese", not a dedicated teacher,
and unable to carry his own weight. But he's one of my favorite
teachers to team-teach with. He's pleasant, friendly (if
you just try to talk to him), and easy to work
during fifth periods, I have seen Mr. Kenshin at his
desk with assorted Japanese students. "Bad" kids.
He's been giving them private English lessons during his free
period. I have never seen another teacher do this. While he's
giving these private lessons to students to whom the other
teachers regard as lost causes, his critics are at their desks
reading a newspaper, chatting with eachother over tea, at
the computer playing a game, or sleeping at their desks.
together with the other two city ALTs twice this past week.
It was fun and it made me wonder why I don't see them enough.
Today we went out to an Italian restaurant, but I was so out
of phase I wasn't much company.
will be leaving in July. Contracts expiring and new JETs rolling
in. I promised myself today that I'd make a serious effort
to see as much of the ones I'm closest to before they leave.
I'm going to miss some of them an awful lot.