Blur
Since
I got back from Egypt a few weeks ago my life has been
a blur. I really hate that. Life won't stay still for
nobody or nothing. And isn't it weird how certain periods
of time will pass quicker or faster for everybody, no
matter what they're doing? Seriously, talk about it with
people and they'll agree with you about how some months
drag their sorry behinds and others go by with lightening
speeds.
Those
of you on my Notify
List know that I had a spellbinding time in Egypt.
Now that I'm back in Japan I have to come to terms with
the real possiblity of leaving off of traveling for quite
some time. In about two and a half months I return to
America and the pale shadow that my life was before I
came to Japan if I don't find another job around here
soon. hahaha I'm partly kidding. I don't really dread
it that much, but I have no idea what I would do if I
did return to the States.
There
is antoher reason for me to stay here, though. Her name
is Kaori. I just met her and she's a brilliant, beautiful,
med student at a university in Kyoto. We had a fantastic
first date on Friday. Quiet walk along the river, a great
meal and discussion. She's a great girl. So diverse in
her interests. Loves to salsa dance, travel, and loves
to laugh (and she has a nice laugh, a huge plus). I really
cut the train ride too close, though, and was stuck in
Osaka wandering the streets for the night until I found
a Denny's!! If you can believe that. I sure as
heck couldn't. Before you ask, no the specials weren't
the same, but they were similar and it was a breath of
familiarity in crazy Osaka. I caught a 5:30 am train back
to Wakayama and arrived very disheveled and tired.
I
find it hard to justify my getting involved with a girl
when I am facing the very real possibility of departure
in only a couple short months. But what the heck, ne?
You only live once.
Some
of my friends are preparing to send their belongings back
to their home countries. It's going to cost me a small
fortune to get all this junk back to America, but I sure
as heck don't want to leave it here. I sure hope I don't
leave it all till the last minute, but knowing me I probably
will. No, you don't understand... really, till
the last minute.
Despite
what I said a couple of weeks ago,
I do really like my job overall. I love it. I don't think
I could do it forever, though, and I certainly don't want
to do it in America, where, for my first teaching assignment,
they'd probably put me in a school that requires you to
go through a metal detector and be strip-searched before
they let you through the front gates. I really hope I'm
not developing a "Mr. Holland's Opus" complex.
I'm not sure I could deal with that.
If
I do stay, I'd have to find a good job, and the jobs like
the one I have are pretty sparse in Wakayama. I've tested
the waters but really haven't made that much of an effort.
If I stayed here, in Japan, I'd want to stay here,
in Wakyama. I have no idea what I'm going to do.
